•• Pretty Distraction ••

Drinking and blogging. These two activities really shouldn’t go together. All that I can say is thank GOODNESS for Microsoft Word. –lol- I needed to relax and have some wine tonight. I only drink socially, and usually my social activities do not contain alcohol. However, I had a rough week and felt the urge (not need, but urge) to have a couple and unwind. Of course, in doing so – my mind goes in many different directions.
 

My job is stressing me out. I’m now going to have to travel a little bit. Sure, it’s only every other week, for only one day… but, that’s not the point. See, the point is the fact that after being with the company for over 4 years, I really shouldn’t have to travel. I did my traveling time… when I first started. So, that set my week off bad when my boss sprung it on me on Monday… then, I trained at that facility on Wednesday.  And, I was already scheduled to go to a different facility today. So, I’ve done a lot of driving this week… and I’ve been exhausted from it all.
 

I talked to a long time friend tonight, and that was awesome. I really miss her being near. We grew up together, and I love her like a sister. We lost communication for awhile, but managed to get back in touch and everything… before she moved. I’m proud of her. She’s doing so well, and doing what makes HER happy. She deserves it. I’m hoping that I can get out west to see her. It would be a BLAST to hang out again. I wish we wouldn’t have lost touch for so long… but I guess it’s bound to happen sometimes, right? Anyway, was nice to talk to her… we laughed A LOT!
 

So now I’m sitting here… on my 3^rd and ½ glass of wine. Actually, “Sparkling Wine”… the bubbles kinda tickle. The bad thing about that is when left to drink alone (which rarely happens, like I said, I hardly ever drink) I start reminiscing. Remembering different times in my life, realizing how much I’ve changed, and what exactly has stayed the same. I find myself sometimes wondering if I’ve lost myself somewhere a long the way… or maybe it’s that I’m still trying to find “me”. I mean, I know we always continue to grow… and change, but sometimes I wonder.
 

I’m still struggling with what all to post. On one hand, it’s my blog – I should post whatever I want. On the other hand, I’m sometimes worried that I’ll give too much of myself away if I blog whatever I want without holding anything back. I worry about what friends and family will think… I shouldn’t, but I find that sometimes I do. Writing is supposed to be my outlet, and in a private setting – it is. I want to be exposed, but I’m cautious in my blog. I’m trying to sort it all out so that I can write what I want, and not have that fear. So, this whole thing might be a slow process… but, rest assured… it’s coming. I’ll get into the habit of posting in here, as opposed to my private journal. Well, about most things anyway. ~grins.