Okay, as some of you may know (or if you don’t, this is a FYI), I have a new puppy. Well, he’s about 20 weeks old. He’s a miniature daschund, dark greyish black with grey dappling, one crystal blue eye and one brown eye, he is named Auzie, and he is the most adorable.puppy.EVER. No, really, he is. In fact, he’s so adorable, that I can’t help myself sometimes, I just want to pick on him. His reactions are priceless. Case in point:

The other night the puppy and I were curled up on the couch, watching The Hills (Yes, that’s right, The Hills… ). So, in the middle of a commercial, Auzie yawns. I couldn’t resist it, I put my finger on his tongue. Which of course he gently bit down on my finger, then shook his head around a little bit. But, what happened next, just left me speechless.

He looked at me, with menacing eyes, and firmly placed his tongue against my leg. He glanced up at me, not licking my leg, oh no… just held his tongue there, and I swear, I heard him say… “Don’t.Make.Me.Lick.You.I.WILL.Do.It.”

I have a wonderful family. Couldn’t dream for better.

I have great friends. Couldn’t ask for better.

The job, that’s a little sketchy, but.. eh, it pays the bills. Well, most of them.

But… there are days, that I’m unsure about everything. There are days that I can’t paint the smile on, and pretend that everything is okay. There are times, that it doesn’t *feel* okay.  There are times that I feel lost, vulnerable, and alone… even when I’m in a crowded room. There are times that I’m sad, and can’t explain way or what caused it. There are times, that my dreams get the best of me and I get wrapped up in the ‘what-ifs’ that I forget about the reality for a bit.

There are times… like now. A crash course of life, and I find myself standing in the middle of the road, with a million different ways to go, and no map.