•• Pretty Distraction ••

Lately, everytime that I find a new blog design that I want to give a try, it gives me errors. Why is it so hard to find a design, that is appealing to readers, functional for the blogger, and lets me change the masthead easily. Sure, I know what you’re saying. I could try and learn all the coding needed, and just make my own. Except, I don’t really want to.

This weekend, I’m going to take the time and update my blogroll over there ~~>. I hardly read a lot of those blogs, and I read some others that aren’t listed, so time to update it all. Know of a blog that I *have* to check out? Leave me a comment and let me know.

I admire those girls, and men for that matter, who can write honestly and openly.. for the public. It seems that everytime that i make up my mind, that I am going to just throw it all out there, I start getting nervous and end up holding back. It’s like, I want to get it out there and just be me, I think that there would be something rather freeing in being able to do that. Yet, when I sit down to let the words flow out, I find myself holding back. What if so and so sees this or that. What if they judge me. What if someone from work finds out. What if that friend finds out. What if he finds my blog. What if she finds my blog. You get the picture. It’s frustrating to me. I write about everything, love… life… silliness… goals.. everything, in a private journal.. and yes, it is nice.. it would also be nice to be part of the whole blog-o-sphere out here.

What I want to know, is how to get from point A… to point B. To fall into the ranks of those that you see on my blogroll over there ~~~>. Yes, how do I … get there.

Really, the problem with offering too many choices, or options, is that when you ask for opinions… generally, everyone will choose something different. Then, you are left, still unsure, because now… you have one vote for each of the choices. ~ugh.

See, like I said, I’m renaming the blog. So, I’ve posted a poll on a different journal of mine, and have asked a few people their opinions. Of course, everyone has choosen something different. So, now I have 1 vote for each of the following: Say When, Little Earthquakes, The Glitter Remains, In Omnia Aparatus.

… continues on with madness.

Dear Self,

Just as an FYI of things to ponder.

My December
Beautiful Silence
Tragic Beauty
Unwritten Symphony
Simple Complexity
*Little Earthquakes
*Say When
-Catch and Release
Coquettish
Write And Wrong
*In Omnia Paratus (Latin; Ready for Anything)
*The Glitter Remains
……..

Geez, the list keeps getting longer. Will the madness end?

I find myself wanting a new blog name. Yes, once again. I can’t help it. Sometimes, things just all of a sudden don’t seem to *fit* me. I need a new design for the blog too, sometimes I’m really growing tired of the flowers.

Both the name and the design, are something that I’m not able to find one where I truly like a lot.

I started my blog, here with WordPress using “Bacardi Blonde”. Then, I decided that didn’t really *fit* me. So, I took a poll. I ended up choosing “Catch and Release” because that is what this blog really is… a catch and release of emotions, thoughts, and various random things that float through my mind. I find myself wondering though, if that truly is the *best* name. I know, I probably create more stress over this for myself, than I do for anyone else.

However, my mind has been tossing around a few names, and I know, you hate change, but guess what?…. I seem to love it.  With that said, I’m deciding amongst these names… who knows, I’ll probably end up keeping it the same, anyway.

Catch And Release, Write & Wrong, She Will Be Loved, and as you may or may not have noticed, I changed from ‘citygirl’ to ‘luckygirl’. I think that luckygirl draws on my love of Vegas and helps create a positive site for me to keep my focus on when things get sad.

So, I’ve been a bad blogger. I had such high hopes, of blogging everyday. Sadly, life is tooooo crazy to be able to do that. So, I’m taking a little motivation from Some Girl and am going to try to blog every other day, at least. I’m not quite ambitious enough to do the blogging every single day for a whole year. I’ll set my standards a little easier than that. I can’t promise the entries will all be fabulous, but there WILL be an entry, at least.

However, I won’t blog on April 30, 2007 – other than that, be sure to check back for my silly ramblings. I’m sure it will be … interesting. At least for me.

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I’ve been wondering lately which direction I want my blog to go. Over the years, I’ve noticed that anytime that I have a public journal I tend to censor myself. I’ve wondered why I do this, and though I try not to… I find myself doing it anyway.

So, that leads me to wonder… why do I care? It is my blog after all. I am an adult. I have real emotions, real thoughts, real desires.. .and while I may not be that single gal living it up in a big city, I’m still a woman. So I’m curious… how do other bloggers get over the silent-monster and just put it all out there?

Maybe I should just put a disclaimer up…. “Warning: This blog may make you mad, it make offend, and you may find it socially unacceptable. But.. it’s all me.”