Just a few random thoughts…

True poets don’t write their thoughts with a pen…
They realize the ink that flows from within their heart.

If you really love someone, Then distance matters only to the mind… not to the heart.

A woman should have….
One old love she can imagine going back to…
And one who reminds her how far she has come…
And how far she has yet to go.

Sometimes relationships are like broken glass…It would be more painful to put it back together than just to let it be.

No, these are not my words… just words that have touched me at one point or another. I love quotes, lyrics, and words. So much expression can be said in the simplest of words.

Today was an okay day. Nothing special. Went and did some running around to a few stores.. the mall, circuit city, etc. I’m dreading work. I fought a migraine all day yesterday, it was horrible. I ended up taking two doses of my medicine, which eventually knocked me out, so I feel like I lost part of my weekend. — and now, I’m relaxing while Desperate Housewives is DVRing, and I’m listening to some Joss Stone.

Remember, tomorrow is the Blog Silence Day. So, I won’t be posting tomorrow for sure.

Hope everyone else had a good weekend. Maybe I’ll have something worthy of content soon… I have GOT to get over this FUNK! (And, I will!)

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Drinking and blogging. These two activities really shouldn’t go together. All that I can say is thank GOODNESS for Microsoft Word. –lol- I needed to relax and have some wine tonight. I only drink socially, and usually my social activities do not contain alcohol. However, I had a rough week and felt the urge (not need, but urge) to have a couple and unwind. Of course, in doing so – my mind goes in many different directions.
 

My job is stressing me out. I’m now going to have to travel a little bit. Sure, it’s only every other week, for only one day… but, that’s not the point. See, the point is the fact that after being with the company for over 4 years, I really shouldn’t have to travel. I did my traveling time… when I first started. So, that set my week off bad when my boss sprung it on me on Monday… then, I trained at that facility on Wednesday.  And, I was already scheduled to go to a different facility today. So, I’ve done a lot of driving this week… and I’ve been exhausted from it all.
 

I talked to a long time friend tonight, and that was awesome. I really miss her being near. We grew up together, and I love her like a sister. We lost communication for awhile, but managed to get back in touch and everything… before she moved. I’m proud of her. She’s doing so well, and doing what makes HER happy. She deserves it. I’m hoping that I can get out west to see her. It would be a BLAST to hang out again. I wish we wouldn’t have lost touch for so long… but I guess it’s bound to happen sometimes, right? Anyway, was nice to talk to her… we laughed A LOT!
 

So now I’m sitting here… on my 3^rd and ½ glass of wine. Actually, “Sparkling Wine”… the bubbles kinda tickle. The bad thing about that is when left to drink alone (which rarely happens, like I said, I hardly ever drink) I start reminiscing. Remembering different times in my life, realizing how much I’ve changed, and what exactly has stayed the same. I find myself sometimes wondering if I’ve lost myself somewhere a long the way… or maybe it’s that I’m still trying to find “me”. I mean, I know we always continue to grow… and change, but sometimes I wonder.
 

I’m still struggling with what all to post. On one hand, it’s my blog – I should post whatever I want. On the other hand, I’m sometimes worried that I’ll give too much of myself away if I blog whatever I want without holding anything back. I worry about what friends and family will think… I shouldn’t, but I find that sometimes I do. Writing is supposed to be my outlet, and in a private setting – it is. I want to be exposed, but I’m cautious in my blog. I’m trying to sort it all out so that I can write what I want, and not have that fear. So, this whole thing might be a slow process… but, rest assured… it’s coming. I’ll get into the habit of posting in here, as opposed to my private journal. Well, about most things anyway. ~grins.

I’m playing around with some themes.. so, please ignore all the changes of back and forth. ~laughs~ I’ll settle on one surely.. but for now.. just think of it like Christmas for your Eyes! -lol-

The weekends always go too quickly for me. It seems like I’m no more getting relaxed and started in on my fun– before it’s Sunday evening and almost time for bed. LOL

It’s not that I *hate* my job. I don’t. The people are really nice, and it’s not too bad. It’s complex work sometimes, and it can be frustrating… but, overall it’s not unbearable. However, the weekends are just too short. I had a lazy weekend too. Normally my favorite day of the week is Saturday. This is because, you can stay up as late as you want the night before, you can sleep in if you want, and you STILL have another whole day before the work week begins once again. Of course, this Saturday I was lazy. No, really…LAZY. I don’t know if it was just catching up to me or what, but I spent most of Saturday lounging around. I watched a few episodes of Season Six of Gilmore Girls. I love that show — I am such a fan. LOL I have Seasons 1 - 6 on DVD, and try to never miss an episode of the current one! Of course, my love for Sex and The City; Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Angel, Grey’s Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, Las Vegas, and Lost — is just as bad. But, we won’t go there

First week of classes went fine. The Library Course doesn’t seem too bad. Of course, it was only the first week! -lol-

I’m going to try to blog more… but, we’ll see. I have good intentions.. it’s just the actual setting down and blogging that I’ll have to get into the habit of doing again. Well, my bed is calling me (or maybe it’s just whispering) either way.. it’s time to get.

Have a good Monday!!

Well, for now I think that I’ve decided on the “Title, Theme, etc” for my blog to be Catch and Release. Yes, the title did come to me while seeing the advertisement for the new movie with Jennifer Garner. The idea of the movie appeals to me, and in thinking back on my life, love, relationships, thoughts, etc… it just seemed to fit. In a sense, my blog will be catching my life, emotions… and then releasing them.  Now I just need to decide on the design of my blog. ugh. Of course, I’m using the sub title of Beautiful Silence. Thank you TheThinker for your comment and thoughts in my previous post.

I’m not new to blogging. Well, let me rephrase. I’m not new to journaling. I’ve been using LiveJournal for about 5 years or so. And, I’ve always kept a paper journal. Various notebooks have been used for my thoughts and randomness, instead of their original intended use: homework. I am fairly new to ‘blogging’ though. While LJ does hold some inviting things such as the communities, and a large network of being automatically connected… the idea of blog seems to appeal more to me as of late. So, I’m trying it out. I’ll keep the LJ, and the paper journals, of course.. but.. we’ll see how this goes. I’ll be adding more people to my blogroll, and hope that some will eventually add me too.

Well, time to get off here and finish getting ready. I’m braving the snow and melting icey roads for brunch and a much needed trip to hell.. errm, I mean Wal-Mart.

What’s in a name? A whole hell of a lot actually. Names are powerful. We choose names online that represent a part of us, perhaps it’s a hobby we have, or our profession, or maybe some silly thing that comes to mind. I try to choose names based on something inside. Something that will represent my true essence. And let me tell you, sometimes that decision is hard. I guess that’s why some people always pick on me for changing online names, email addresses, etc. I get set on one, that I think ‘fits’ me, only to find out a few months later that it no longer seems to ‘be’ me. At least, in my eyes it doesn’t ‘fit’ anymore. So, then I go on a search for something else that I feel ‘fits’ me — at least for the moment. Sure, it’s exhausting. But really, once I decide on something, I find other interests that seem to evolve from me. So now, I’m thinking about what to title my blog. Do I want to stay ‘bacardi blonde’ — or are there other things that ‘fit’ me better. I’ve thought of Beautiful Hush, Beautiful Silence, Tragic Beauty, Spilt Sugar, Taboo, Novel Girl, City Girl, and who knows what else. I just want something that ‘fits’, something that is ‘catchy’, you know — for those days when I become a ‘famous’ (LMAO!!) blogger and writer. I could ask the opinion of a few friends, but then I’d have to hear about how often I change names, and honestly — I am just not in the mood. LOL Yes, that sounds bitchy… I can’t help it. -blah-It’s getting late, and I’m mixed with being sleepy and being restless. Guess that’s it for the blog right now. -grins- I’m sure I’ll be bloggin this weekend, We have an Ice Storm here and are expecting 2 more ‘waves’ of ice, sleet and MAYBE some snow through out the weekend. I’ll be staying warm at home this weekend! J

Okay, today (off and on) I’ve been in WP Theme hell. Yes, that’s right. I decided to change the theme (again) — yeah, didn’t I warn you about this?

Anyway, I changed themes, added some nifty plug-ins. I have these great Yahoo smilies and I have a cool calender over there ~> — I think that I’m happy with it. Well, for now anyway. HAHA. I  might change the header image though.. hrmmms.

The elections were interesting to say the least. I’m am pleased to find that there is a ‘change’ of some sorts going to come into the government. It’s about time for a change. (Please, hold all hate mail. lol) 

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. I’m ready for the week! Well that’s it for now. Just wanted to post something quick

Have a good Friday tomorrow!

~S